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... you were exactly right.
I am the sort of person who likes to know what the plan is, and who takes a while to adjust to a change in plans (even for something *totally* ordinary and routine).
The sort of person who, when asked (out of the blue) "Wanna go up north this weekend?" would respond (instantly and utterly calmly) "We can't." "No? Why not?" "Because ... because we didn't plan to."
(Ed note -- we did, in fact, go up north that very evening, almost 30 years ago, and the stars did not change their courses, and we are still here to remember the story....)
So that's me, and that's how I respond to unexpected ideas..........
An opportunity to go to France, exploring different parts of the country, checking out the differing ambiences, food, scenery, etc, has dropped into my lap. And, even though the notice was short, and many details are anything but settled, I am going.
(Digression -- Photoshop Elements noticed [!!!] that there are bank notes in this image, and warned me that it would not help me print them. Isn't that interesting? That it could tell, and that it would want to behave well? I blurred out the serial numbers, and saved the image in an even more degraded condition than usual, hoping to avoid getting in trouble. I just wanted to show the nice design -- the bridge [actually, I bet it's an aqueduct....], and what you can't see well in the lower right is a map of Europe....
ps -- how come everyone else's money is prettier than ours?
End of Digression.)
I dithered about whether to talk about going before I went.
Which brings me back to the gist of the statement with which I began this post -- obsessing about how every little unknown thing will work out (OR NOT!!!!!!!) can be one of my failings.
It's good to try to get things organized, to try to avoid ... unpleasantness ... but the other side of that coin is that, at some point, one must let go of all the scary "what if?"s, stride forward, and DO stuff.
Or one will end up quivering on the couch (or under the bed...), afraid to go out, afraid to answer the door, just ... afraid. And ... that's a waste of a life.
My friends and family have all been uniformly supportive. "GO!" is what they have all said. (With, perhaps, a certain bemusement that there was even a question as to going.) "GO!"
Jennifer, not knowing anything about this, but with exquisite timing, posted this, on moving through fear and getting it done.
From a slightly different angle, contemplating this "go? don't go?" theme -- just yesterday I found this amazing dream-come-true visit-to-Paris story: part one, part two, part three, part four.
My mom, when she was about my age (55-plus-something), went back to college for the graphic arts degree she'd been thinking about for decades.
One role model after another, leading the way......................... One role model after another, focused on a goal, moving through whatever apprehension may have stood between her and what she wanted to accomplish..........
I'm going to go. On the spur of the moment. Without all the details comfortably nailed down.
I'm going to go places I've never been, eat foods I've never tasted, see things I've never seen......
I'm going to embrace ... well, let's ask for something realistic, here....
I'm going to *hold hands with* High Adventure in spite of my Low Adventure nature. :-)
I will disappear from here, soon. I will tell you alllll about it, but probably not until I am home (though I may be able to post a pic or two from time to time; we'll see).
UPDATE 11:21 am EST -- wahoo! Now if the loaner phone Verizon is sending also arrives today (as I have been told it will), the last of my largest remaining concerns will be gone!
UPDATE 4:35 pm EST -- phone also has arrived!
I will be joining my daughter, who has been in Europe for a few weeks. The first post for her trip is here.
In order to facilitate chronological traverse of my France posts, here is a link to the post that comes after this one.
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8 comments:
So wonderful! And brave ... even if others think it's a duh.
I spent 10 weeks in the East Bay area of San Francisco last summer, and you can't believe (well, you probably can) how much I dithered before I sublet a place I had never even seen but would have to live in for 2.5 months.
It turned into a grand adventure in many ways, and I will never regret it.
Your adventure? Amazing.
Can't wait to hear all about it. Have fun!
Jennifer
Thank you! :-)
So interesting how we are either ... apprehensive about things, or ... not.
And, if not, it can be hard to see how someone else finds them scary.....
This whole travel anxiety thing sort of crept up on me, over the last several years, and I didn't really realize it was an issue, until It Was An Issue.
Will be addressing it in an organized and concerted way. When I get home. :-)
Anyway -- yes, I probably *can* imagine how you dithered about your sublet. :-) :-)
It does seem like these things generally do work out, doesn't it?
That is my new mantra -- "Things usually work out ok. Things nearly always work out ok. Things almost always work out ok......."
:-)
I am, I am very happy to say, actually shifting, bit by bit, from anxiety to anticipation. (And expect I will feel MUCH better if a certain stinking delivery company brings my rail pass and my loaner phone TODAY as they claim they will!!!)
My daughter will meet me in Paris, and we will have several hours before our train leaves for Basque country. I really want to see the Eiffel Tower during that time. Don't need to visit it, just *see* it, for that "I'M REALLY IN PARIS!!!!" moment......
I look at it from that "Paris Weather" button on the right side of my blog, nearly every day, and to Be There, and See It In Person..... !!!! Can't wait. :-)
Thanks for the good thoughts. :-)
Will be writing everything down, with the intent of posting A Lot when I get home. :-)
Oh, Vicki -- I am so excited for you -- no need to look at the Eiffel Tower Cam when you can see it in person. Have the most wonderful time -- and I look forward to sharing the trip through your photos.
Thanks, Penni!
This will be a once-in-a-lifetime experience, for sure.
I'm going to write and write, and take pics, naturellement, and turn it all into posts when I am able to do so.....
:-)
Bon voyage dear Orange. Hope you have a wonderful, safe trip. Take tons of pictures and posts, yes! I'm so looking forward to hearing all about it.
Thank you, Lorraina. :-)
I am looking forward to being able to share the adventure.....
:-)
Oh, my goodness! Have a wonderful, wonderful time. You are going to love it. So many beautiful things to see, so much good food, mmmm... wonderful, wonderful, wonderful! Bon voyage!!! :D
p.s. I understand the need to plan. I have exactly the same need. :D
p.p.s. Take LOTS of pictures!!!
Thanks! :-)
I booked my first French hotel this morning.
How on earth did we ever do anything like this without the internet?
Book the hotel; print the confirmation; print the maps and directions from the train station to the hotel on the back of the confirmation......
:-)
It *IS* good to move through our fears and find that we *CAN* do stuff............
:-)
Though the words of one of my friends at work keep echoing in the back of my mind ... "What don't kill you, make you strong LIKE BULL!" :-) :-)
I've never actually quite *wanted* to be a bull.........
;-)
As for pics -- my daughter has my good camera, and is putting it to excellent use. I already had three 4G chips for it, and bought it three more before she left. I'll have my little camera, which is the one I carry every day, and have four 2G chips for it, plus a 4G usb key. The netbook can read SD cards, so I will be able to put pics from SD cards onto the usb key. For that matter, I should be able to write from the netbook to those 4G chips, too..... And with the netbook, I'll be able to triage the pics and throw out the hopeless ones.
So I'm hoping that's enough storage. (The netbook only has a few gig of extra space.)
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